So, what do you think of the new idea of the mad black person? It's kinda disgusting. It threw me off on my walk. Things shouldn't be this way. I hope this gets over with soon. Like, uneven eyeballs, veins popping out, skin stretching and watering over.
Where did the idea come from? I had on my website before that I was plagued of an ad of a tall, thin black woman with a laptop being Ellen DeGeneres. I kept hearing clicks and stuff and being reminded in a way that that was her to me, which is bad. It's kinda stopped. I mean, it both hurt me and made me feel bad about the idea, in general, of course. What else is there to say?
So... I dunno. I'm getting this idea from Ellen DeGeneres. She just had a bunch of black people on her show and seemed friendly to them. She's trying to get it over with. I got, like, ideas of sounds of her with a deep voice, too, but not in a way that felt good for me.
So, I don't believe it was me that concocted this and am concerned. It seems to be going away.
I also got the idea she thought I was like kinda thick yet slippery and bony and scant, overly stimulated in a metallic way with square, stimulated, really thick, smooth fingernails, kinda short, glasses, straight flippy black hair, like moving my fingers in a funny way, excited at the keyboard, like I was stimulated having a father born in 1950 but, like, dorky not having him be born later. :/
I don't like how people have totaled me as shit over others of my race.
You know, I really felt female compared to my dad. It's hard to take females seriously these days. Why are the men so old-fashioned? Think about Johnny Depp. I mean, I wanted to be cool like a man. I seemed tacky, too. I'm glad my mom is so different from my dad. It brings out the best in me. I don't believe it's the dad who lays the egg. Boys grow to be like their dads.